fear

still remember for the past 9 months, whenever i wake up, i was bless with happiness, smile, and joy.... brand new day with a brand new life...... but now a days, after the stupid exam..... every morning, whenever i'm awake, i was bless with fear, insecure and panic..... i miss my life, i miss my smile, i miss my happiness and my joy.... pls God, i want to pass my exam, don't feel like sitting the stupid chemistry again..... oh btw, can you give me back my gigantic appetite T.T now a days, after the stupid exam, the most i can eat for my dinner is only 5 piece of sushi.... geez..... i miss my appetite..... give me back..... i can't eat buffet anymore..... NO...... but anyway, look at the bright side, maybe i get to reduce my weight..... ahahaha...... fair enough.....

ok, 2 more days to go, and on friday i will know whether should i take the stupid exam or not.... God, pls bring me miracle..... i need miracle.... i want miracle...... pretty pretty pls.....

oh btw, special thanks to martin, op and kristen for taking care of me when i'm very very depress... it's really meant a lot... esp i really need someone at that time..... thank u so much.... i love u guys...... ok, minasan, gambatesimas...... taz....