26th feb 2013

I'm happy now.... Even though there's still fear but I'm happy now:) at least my baby is back.. I hope that we will stay forever:) and hope that he will be my husband:)

15th jan 2013

Hm,... Compare to previous post... I'm much happy now... No more crying... But then I'm not happy... No longer,... Because I start to feel the pain of ldr... I start to feel that even though career and money is important but human are much more important... Because of secondary item, u lost someone that is important to u... Well maybe I'm not important anymore... I start to feel tired to hold on and to maintain a love that he don't appreciate... I start to feel tired to get hurt from him and to expect my bf to sayang me... I start to get frustrate with him who don't want responsibility and only want fun... I start to feel annoyed... Annoyed and annoyed.... I love him but I need a response love... Not a single way love... A person to sayang me... Not a person who put me as secondary... Hiez...

10th jan 2013

Things getting good now... Hopefully he still love me... Everyday I've been living in fear... Until now I'm numb... Just feel that maybe one day when he leave me, I can go by my own... I never like the situation whereby two couple agree to break up... Cuz very pathetic, both that once love each other so much decide to give up and let go.. Never thought of saving back... Well, I love bubu a lot but he seems to waiting for time to let me go.... Feel sad ah sometime... Just wonder after Cny, will we still be together? Will I have the chance to go to Beijing on April... I didn't put much hope anymore but I still hope that he's the one... If we break up, I might miss him even until the day I'm old.. I might still think of him... So, I pray that he's my last bf... But I can't force things, ill let him go and go on with my life if he still dont think I'm the one... Sara, remember, treat everyone in a kind and patience heart:) love the one that be with u:)

25th December 2012

It was Christmas.... But I wasn't happy.... I don't feel like going out or celebrating.... Lost the meaning of celebration ever since back to hatyai... While thing change... Just when I thought I'm getting my happiness, he left... Just when I thought everything was fine... He changed and turn his back on me.... I'm disappointed cuz he changed so easily... Is his love that fragile or we don't mean for each other... I did mistakes but why will u turn back on me? If u can do this to me, I'm sure it will happen on every of your relationship.... I'm sad, u know how sad I am? Do u know that how frustrated I am? I've no one to rely on and I don't even dare to bother u... Cuz I know you will feel annoyed... I don't want u to feel so.... I love you and I truly do... I hope that you will one day realize what have u misses cuz if I hurt you for that one period.... That three month, then you've been hurting me for the remaining period of our relationship... Undeniably I give out more than you... I love you but I really don't know what to do now... I hope that I can just sleep for a week without waking up.. And that when I wake up, I won't feel the pain anymore

23rd august 2011

this few days been wondering, does he still love me or not... but then today i realize that every relationship has its bottleneck.... just like exam, we have to work hard on it... so i'll work hard and save my relationship... if my relationship is dull, i'll make it interesting and fun.... no matter what, i'll try hard and save it.... then i'll have no regrets.... after all, i still love him and will still continue... so now, i'll start my saving plan^^

22nd august 2011

is been 10 month i didn't write anything on my blog... cuz i was happy that time... now i'm sad again... hiez.... ever since saturday night i have a fight with bi, my heart brokes.... never knew that i'll be a burden to him... never know that i'm an existing pressure to him... even tho we are still together, i'm just like a desperate wife that dono wat to do to save the relationship... i was lost, very love. No doubt that i love him... even tho he hurt me a lot, i will still want to stay in this relationship... sometime really feel that i'm a bit dummy=.= maybe is karma.... i hurt a lot of my previous ex and this is my turn... u will never know how it feel when things changes and u dono why is it change.... i know i'm partly responsible to it but why? why when i wanted to start a long-term relationship, when i wanted to be serious on it, it does not go smooth... i really feel sad tho... seeing him on fb but cannot chat with him or if not he'll don't like it.... when i feel sad, i cannot call him or else he'll think that i'm useless and get angry... i really try very hard to maintain this relationship.... i know that sparks will go away one day... i know that love will go away one day but i did put on effort to work this relationship out.... If there is God, can u tell me why are u giving me such tough life.... why can't my life go smooth.... i did my very best... i don't mean to be clingy but that's bcoz i like him and i'm doing it in a normal way.... i didn't know that he hate me so much.... i really feel very sad.... i really hope that all the prob will gone as soon as possible... relationship suppose to be happy, but i'm feeling sad everyday...

26th oct

time flies.... is been 3 month since the last time i wrote my blog... well, i've move on already... with someone i love... maybe he's not a sweet talker, definitely not a romantic type of bf... not neat, not sensitive, a bit caring.... but then, fate set us together ever since beginning, so i've already see him as my only one right now.... but then sometime, i do wish he'll become who he is back when i first know him... cuz this is the reason why i fall for him.