something i would like to share

hi, is been quite some time since my last written blog..... well, almost 6 months i would say..... well, i would say, the tough time has already pass and the good ones is yet to come..... i miss every of my friends from sydney... i miss mel, chris, ran, kristen, op, martin, vina, nicole, jon, bennedict, daniel... is a blessing to know all of you as friends.... It is the greatest gift from God. i was always being bless by God for the past 19 years... have a supportive family and friends, get into the uni that i wanted, and bless with a lot of love. But everything has change in November 2007. i couldn't remember the day that change my life, but i could remember it was the day of my first exam. I nearly faint during my exam, it really freak me out as what comes into my mind is RM40,000 gone. my uni fees per semester. and then i was admitted to hospital. the doctor actually diagnose me wrongly. i always thought that i've viral infection, but in the matter of fact, is not a viral infection. it was something way too much for me to accept. It was something that nearly took my life away.... after that incident, i was mad at God, i'm angry why will he treat me like this? why is it being so unfair to me. after all the way i have walk, after all the effort i've put. why must i quit my uni? and then, i notice, is because God wants me to learn to view my life in a different way. to see life in a different thoughts and to take away my burden. but until now, i still can't really let it go. my dreams of graduating in UNSW, i wish there will be one day, my wish will come true... a wish for living in australia and a wish that time can turn back and give me one more chance to finish whatever i haven't done in australia. i cried on kye li's farewell, because most of them that came are going back to overseas. i'm the only one being left out... i hereby review all this to you all is because i hope that there will be one day when you gone through a tough time, you will think, everyone have their toughest time and if they can make it, it won't be a problem to you. if you think you are unlucky or you are suffering, always have a look at your surrounding. look at those that is handicap and those that suffering in africa. giving out some love and help may save a person life, don't waste your life, do whatever you can to help others.

live a life where u never think of.......

every human like us always dream of living a live without worries and problem..... where u can relax everyday and do whatever u like..... the reason why we can't choose the life we want is because of reality and being realistic.... humans are symphathetic sometimes... they always follow the word 'greed' where money controls them instead of they themselve controlling the money..... money is what created by human..... but it ends up money leading human towards the darkest side.....( greed i would say) there was once i read a book..... it said, human was born to the world as a baby without anything so when they grew up, they earn as much as they can...... and they would even feel that is not enough even though they earn a lot than others..... and so the hole of greed getting bigger and bigger...... and when ageing appear, only they will n otice what they have miss...... and till the day they die, they bring away nothing but a heart that full of regret......

i myself, never think of letting go and giving up..... so is really hard for me to climb up when i fall down..... cause we always plan our future before it happen and we always expects things will turn out as what we expected...... so when something come and block our way, we tend to destroy it instead of letting them to block our way towards the future path.... but sometimes, we often forget that we, ourself are humans.... and there's always a limit beyond everything.... so, when things turn out of our expectation, it'll eventually pull us down.....

and so, what i learn from my lesson is that, on the day, after u let go ur burden and everything, u'll find out that u have miss a lot in your life.... ur family, ur frens, ur happiness, and the world....

so, ask urself, how much money would u want to earn until u feel that u r reach enough to stop working???? the answer is infinity..... when a person become wealthy, mostly, greed will eventually increases.....

every problem have their own solution....

today my friend suddenly ask me that: when is the last time you ever saw your mum laugh happily... i told my friend: sometimes my dad tell her some joke, she will laugh... but my friend said: not that type of laugh, is that type of laugh where it comes deep from your heart.... the kind of laugh that contain happiness and without any stress..... then i start to think.... never in my life i saw my mum laugh happily.... is just the same as when we grows up, the time we feel stress getting more and more.... sometimes, i feel like being back a kid..... live without any stress, problem.... but in reality, as we grew up, things that we have to worry getting more and more.... normally what i do is, everytime when i have any problem, instead of feeling stress, i will find an answer and solve it..... for example, if you feel stress of failing your subject... just ask yourself, what can you do if you feel stress?? can you pass if you feel stress??? what you can do is study hard and avoid failing the subject.... even though if you fail, earn back the money and study again.... learn from the lesson and tell yourself that failure is the path towards success.... if you fail, it doesn't mean is the end of the world..... is just something that you have to gone through in your life and learn how to accept it, how to be better.... how to improve.... not just worry but do nothing.... so every problem have its own solution to solve it.... if money can solve it, it wouldn't be a problem anymore....

most disgusting video i ever seen

2 girls 1 cup is the most^10000 disgusting video i ever seen in my life...... i nearly puke out all my lunch..... yucks.... if you guys wana watch just go to www.2girls1cup.com and watch it..... btw, pls don't eat anything before you watch the show...... taz.....

my current life.....in sydney

is been a long long time since the last time i wrote my blog.... i nearly forget my password and email to log in... anyway, cause i'm busy...... n i'm not depress anyway.... yeah.......just a but worried about new session exam... T.T life is so stress... why do i have to think about something that doesn't exist....omg.......

anyway, i'm going back to malaysia soon..... haha.... oh btw, i really miss every1 of u..... kristen, mel, vina, op....etc.... lol..... yong as well..... anyway, gtg..... feel lazy to continue...... bye

miss malaysia

sigh..... first time in my life i miss malaysia.... i miss mamak, chicken rice, nasi lemak, penang laksa... yum yum.... hehehe, malaysia, here i come..... wait till i go back, i'll start my food schedule.... lala

yesterday was talking to my friend, according to what they said, sabah and sarawak is an 'ulu' place as in remote area, the food taste bad... birds won't even fly to that place to lay their eggs.... poor chris, every1 eating nasi lemak, chris can only eat nasi putih, we drink teh tarik, he drink sky juice..... pity the fellow.... ahaha....

oh yea, back to my topic..... ever since the stupid exam, i felt damn homesick..... haya, i think i won't feel that homesick if there is a wii waiting for me..... so, vina... we're best friend..... so, you should know what to do..... @.@

a piece of joke....

was thinking, someday maybe in a sudden, i'll meet some1 i like then we'll date, engage, wedding.... but ever since after my exam.... i don't feel like having a bf right now.... just feel like concentrating on my studies..... i know there's a blance between relationship and studies, but i'm thinking how if one day during the exam period, i was sick, will my bf just put down everything and come to keep me accompany?? will he be able to solve my problem when i feel stress??? if he can't do that, why do i need a bf?? having a best friend will be more realistic than having a bf..... but, there will be one day, when i meet the right one, i shall change my mind... or maybe i'll stay as single forever... choi... touccchhhh woooooddddd.... in that case, i shall pull kristen, martin n op together.... then 4 of us shall stay in a bachelor apartment... ahahahahaha.... touch wood btw.. not that lucky..... maybe should invite chris and ran together.... ahahhaha..... there's a big possibilites......

for mel, i think she will be the first one to get marry.... suitable to be a housewife as well.... mel, you can't deny that....

oh btw vina, do you remember during hillsong conference, you and wendy were laughing when i'm sitting in the wheelchair.... break my heart, 'pring piang' so, i'm thinking, in future when u give birth, i'll be standing beside and keep you accompany, while you're screaming, i'll do funny faces...... k, faster get married.... oh btw, for daniel, hm.... i have to say, u will be a good husband and a good house'wife' ahahahahaha..... eh btw, i reckon you and ryan lim will be a good couple doooo.... hahahahaha...... kk, sorry.... blek..... you know, sometimes you have to forgive small sara..... still in the childish stage.... ok, c u guys in 3 months time.... at that time, u will see a brand new sara.... maybe even more naughty...... ahahahaha....

ps: i don't know why, in the beggining i was planning to say something serious, but in the end all gone =.= i have to admit, i'm hypo random @.@ well, this is who i am.....