wednesday

is Wednesday, well at least i didn't look at his facebook picture today..... but then today my mum said that i have a very very very bad tempered this few days.... i wanted to ask my mum: what can i do.... in order not to let you call him and ask him, i have to pretend that i'm the one that hurting him and i'm the one that don't like him anymore..... do u know how it feels when u are moody and sad and u have to pretend that u r strong and act nothing..... well, i admit, i did invest a lot of my feelings in this relationship.... so, is my fault, no one to blame for..... what i want to do now, is to ask him out and settle everything..... i don't know how can i cope it if he told me that he don't like me anymore.... at least, i'll feel heart pain, and eventually soon i'll let it go.... better than now, don't know anything and struggling.... i think i'm the only one that is struggling..... karma.... this is how i treat my ex last time.... =.= so i hope that when i meet him, he'll tell me straight that he don't love me anymore.... at least, i can move on my life...... God, pls bless me.... thanks.