a piece of joke....

was thinking, someday maybe in a sudden, i'll meet some1 i like then we'll date, engage, wedding.... but ever since after my exam.... i don't feel like having a bf right now.... just feel like concentrating on my studies..... i know there's a blance between relationship and studies, but i'm thinking how if one day during the exam period, i was sick, will my bf just put down everything and come to keep me accompany?? will he be able to solve my problem when i feel stress??? if he can't do that, why do i need a bf?? having a best friend will be more realistic than having a bf..... but, there will be one day, when i meet the right one, i shall change my mind... or maybe i'll stay as single forever... choi... touccchhhh woooooddddd.... in that case, i shall pull kristen, martin n op together.... then 4 of us shall stay in a bachelor apartment... ahahahahaha.... touch wood btw.. not that lucky..... maybe should invite chris and ran together.... ahahhaha..... there's a big possibilites......

for mel, i think she will be the first one to get marry.... suitable to be a housewife as well.... mel, you can't deny that....

oh btw vina, do you remember during hillsong conference, you and wendy were laughing when i'm sitting in the wheelchair.... break my heart, 'pring piang' so, i'm thinking, in future when u give birth, i'll be standing beside and keep you accompany, while you're screaming, i'll do funny faces...... k, faster get married.... oh btw, for daniel, hm.... i have to say, u will be a good husband and a good house'wife' ahahahahaha..... eh btw, i reckon you and ryan lim will be a good couple doooo.... hahahahaha...... kk, sorry.... blek..... you know, sometimes you have to forgive small sara..... still in the childish stage.... ok, c u guys in 3 months time.... at that time, u will see a brand new sara.... maybe even more naughty...... ahahahaha....

ps: i don't know why, in the beggining i was planning to say something serious, but in the end all gone =.= i have to admit, i'm hypo random @.@ well, this is who i am.....

fear

still remember for the past 9 months, whenever i wake up, i was bless with happiness, smile, and joy.... brand new day with a brand new life...... but now a days, after the stupid exam..... every morning, whenever i'm awake, i was bless with fear, insecure and panic..... i miss my life, i miss my smile, i miss my happiness and my joy.... pls God, i want to pass my exam, don't feel like sitting the stupid chemistry again..... oh btw, can you give me back my gigantic appetite T.T now a days, after the stupid exam, the most i can eat for my dinner is only 5 piece of sushi.... geez..... i miss my appetite..... give me back..... i can't eat buffet anymore..... NO...... but anyway, look at the bright side, maybe i get to reduce my weight..... ahahaha...... fair enough.....

ok, 2 more days to go, and on friday i will know whether should i take the stupid exam or not.... God, pls bring me miracle..... i need miracle.... i want miracle...... pretty pretty pls.....

oh btw, special thanks to martin, op and kristen for taking care of me when i'm very very depress... it's really meant a lot... esp i really need someone at that time..... thank u so much.... i love u guys...... ok, minasan, gambatesimas...... taz....

why stress????

why stress??? why? why will stress occur? is because you tell yourself that you are stress.... thats's why you feel stress.... always remember, stress will only come and find you when you tell yourself that you are stress.... life will be meaningful and full of joyfull when you tell yourself that you are happy and you will live everyday in a happy life.... there's a choice between happy and stress... whether you choose to live a life that full of stress or live in a life that full of joy.... So, you're not stress, is just that you want yourself to be stress..... If you can't control stress, why do you care about those things that make you feel stress??

If you don't feel happy, is the burden matters to you now??? stress and depress is the worst thing in the world..... it takes away all your joyful life..... so if you don't even bother about having joy or happiness, why do you still bother about stress???

see through the sky, open up the window, ask yourself..... when is the last time you look up to the sky and see it clearly? everytime, when i feel stress, i love to look at the sky, but is the weather before it rain, so you can see dark clouds covering up the bright one.... i get peace from that.... do whatever you feel like doing it..... sing a song, make yourself feel happy, plan something, as in picture something in future that will make you feel happy, go on a talk with your friend and blast out everything.... don't keep it by yourself... always remember, you are a human, there's a limit beyond the extreme, so don't keep it but share it.... and don't forget, God had already plan a journey and destiny for you, what's matter, is the process that you get to the destiny whether is in a smooth lane, or in a difficult lane that full of traps that pulls you down... but no matter what, you will still get there...

ps: read bible, (matthew 6:25-34)